I Have Been Willing to Die, Etc.
Document 1799John Murray laments that he has stood by the dying beds of many who were called away. The truth is both B. and Murray are cowards. He was afraid to stay and Murray was afraid to run away. He thought it was his duty to go and Murray thought it was his duty to stay so both are a good sort of folks. Murray admits that for a number of years he has been willing to die because he longs to leave the present.
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Boston Nov 21.
My very good friend, Your obliging favor of the 22d of Oct: was put into my hand before I got out of my [bed] this morning, and the moment I rise from my mornings repast I sit me down to express my gratitude to my obliging friend. I thank you my dear Sir for the attention you have paid to the inclosed, I thank you with my whole Soul, that is Mrs Murrays and my own. you could not have obliged my better half in anyway so much ——
Yesterday! It sports amazing! but it serves to justify the old Proverb. — Great bodies move slowly — the General left us in great haste — but I find he has tarried till his hurry is over — I expected he would have been at home by this time ——
I am happy in hearing our friend P— has returned to duty. I am glad I have a chance of hearing of him, since I cannot have the pleasure of hearing from him. And he thinks I should have ran away also — had I been there — it is very possible. but, had I done in Phil— as I did in this Town. Stood by the dying beds of many who was called away — it would not have proved that I was better than our friend P—. the truth of it is, we are both cowards, he was afraid to stay, and I was afraid to run away. I suspect he thought it was his duty to go, and I thought it was my duty to stay — so you see we are both very good sort of folks — he thought it was for his interest too his duty — so did I. how happy when we can see that our interest and duty coincide. — I have not, however, for many years been afraid of death — I have been for many years, rather willing to die — in this, by the way, I have no merit. I am dow[undecipherable]d by the very selfsame principle that man is governed by, who suffers torment in the fear of death — he thinks himself much better circumstanced where he is, and dreads the thought of leaving his present residence. I think I shall be infinitely better circumstanced in the state I am hastning to, and therefore long to leave the present. There is, my friend, a much greater similarity in the minds of men, than proud men are willing to acknowledge ——
= Yes, my dear Sir, Mrs Murray has been in Town a considerable time, and anxiously looking for the intelligence you have had the goodness to forward. She begs you to accept her grateful acknowledgements.
= So — you have got a Governor — much good may it do you — were you among the Rascality that opposed his promotion? if so — how you must feel! Shame must burn your cheek to cinder — yet, you will, I presume, console yourself by thinking your company will keep you in countenance — well — if you can derive consolation from this so much the better. You have something on this occasion to cheer you. P— Fever is gone — and the President returned — and your 'fellow Citizens by thousands' — may they never more be driven from their comfortable abodes by the same enemy. — I have lately thought much of a remedy — a preventive remedy — the warm Bath. There has been much said respecting the [underline: filth] of the Streets and Houses, but little said or thought of the filth of the Inhabitants — I have often thought that [there is] not in the world a country where heat in the summer months prevails, something so that Bathing is so little used — If you would in your city establish a number of [underline: Public Baths] in the summer — for the Inhabitants to resort to, and there have proper att[endance] — one — that the People may be washed, and cleansed from the filth which adhers to their Bodies — it would have a greater tendency to preserve their health than any thing that has ever yet been thought of. O that men were wise that they underst[ood] this! — So my dear Sir, mention this among the great — and the good — your families associates — and who knows but a small spark may kindle a great [fire?].
I pray you to present our respectful regards to your very amiable Lady, and to our [undecipherable] — and to believe me ever Your much obliged
& devoted Servant
John Murray
Do pray tell me which of the [undecipherable] —
Heads of Departments have resigned!!
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Description
John Murray laments that he has stood by the dying beds of many who were called away. The truth is both B. and Murray are cowards. He was afraid to stay and Murray was afraid to run away. He thought it was his duty to go and Murray thought it was his duty to stay so both are a good sort of folks. Murray admits that for a number of years he has been willing to die because he longs to leave the present.
Date
11/21/1799
Author
Recipient
Sent from
Boston
Document number
1799112180001
Page start
1
Notable persons
Samuel Hodgdon
John Murray
Notable locations
Philadelphia
Boston
Notable items
public bath
death

